“Let your Hope keep you joyful, be Patient in your troubles and Pray all times – Romans 12:12”
All of us women are dreaming and longing to have our own baby someday so that we can be called “MOM”…
Some women are so lucky that they are easily get pregnant, others like me need to go through a lot of test and patience just to conceive and few were not granted.
Today I am sharing my Quest, hopefully it can inspire to others….
I remember, 13 years ago (way back 2003 during my college years) when my menstruation started to be irregular; 1 month, 2 months, 3 months without monthly period but at first I just ignored it, I knew that I was going to have it, I’m confident that I’m not pregnant during that time so it’s ok… maybe it’s only just delayed. I had no worry then since I’m young but it reached to the point that 5 to 6 months had passed that I’m delayed and I knew to myself that there is something wrong inside my body, and that’s the triggering time that I decided to consult an Ob-Gynecologist.
I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS for short) in which women’s ovaries grows many small cysts (those cysts which are not harmful) that lead to hormonal imbalance. As per doctor said, those are the reasons why I had irregular periods and can be a big factor to fertility problem and trouble getting pregnant.
“God has a reason for allowing things to happen. We may never understand His wisdom, but we simply have to trust His will. – Psalm 37:5”
A lot of questions and what ifs came into my mind during that time… What if I can’t be pregnant anymore? What if my future husband didn’t accept my health situation? How can I build my own family? What if I just grow old alone? What will happen to me in the future? ….
My Obgyne prescribed me an oral medication to normalize and regulate my monthly period and it became effective to me until my cycle continuously doing well without taking medicines.
Before me and my husband got married I already told to him about my health condition (Having PCOS and lower chances of getting pregnant). I know that it is the best thing to do – to be open and honest, to let him know early and also to prepare him to be less expected if he will still embrace me and I’m glad that he accepted me wholeheartedly knowing my situation, but of course we still not losing hope to have our Li’l One in God’s time.
“Be Patient. God isn’t finished with you yet. – Philippians 1:6”
Almost 3 years after we got married (way back 2009) but still we didn’t granted to have a baby in a natural way. We know that it’s because of my PCOS situation but we still tried it in a natural way. My menstruation started again to be irregular, but this time I also suffered heart palpitations. So we decided again to consult to Obgyne (referred and highly recommended by our officemate) and at the same time to Endocrinologist.
I’ve gone through several test and ultrasounds after consultation and as findings as before, still I have PCOS with retroverted uterus. (Retroverted uterus means that the uterus is tilted backward inside the pelvis) and Hypothyroidism. (Hypothyroidism is a condition in which the body lacks sufficient thyroid hormone and slow metabolism). I feel lost during that time; I thought the whole world turned upside down, of all the people why me? All I wanted is to have a baby to complete us as a family.
I also began to envy my sister-in-laws every time they made a pregnancy announcement; I feel down that it wasn’t me knowing we are the first to get married. Adaption also came in my mind, but my husband disagrees and said that it is not the answer to our hopes and wishes.
“Therefore I tell you whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you received it, and it will be yours – Mark 11:24”
I started to lose hope but Thanks to God that I have my supportive husband during the time of my turning point, He said that we should not be despair, just focus and keep praying. We also went through intense devotion and novena to St. Clare and Black Nazarene to grant our petition to have baby.
I continue the prescribed medications and treatment given by my Obgyne and Endo – oral medications for ovulation and hormonal balancing, ultrasounds and almost weekly consultations.
“The pain that you’ve been feeling, can’t compare to the joy that’s coming – Romans 8:18”
And yesssssss, exactly seven months have passed under continuous treatment, our much awaited wish was granted! Finally I’m pregnant and soon to be Mom. We are so blessed, God has not forsaken us!
Miracles do really come true! I conceived and gave birth to a healthy baby boy in December 2010. Nevertheless, it wasn’t an easy journey but we made it!